tothehometree

I just wanted to poke my head out and say Hi. Having found this place, I finally, after all these years, can say that I hope to have found a small home among all of you.
Perhaps am explanation of who I am would be in order.
I am Taw. I believe, and have for a long time, that inside, I was something different. Something inhuman. I have had countless... countless dreams about flying, about hunting as this great thing. I could never really describe it, and I was afraid my parents would try to send me to a mental hospital if I told them the truth. By the time I was 15, I was pretty firm in my belief of who, or rather, what I was within. Still, at that time, I couldn't deal with my parents, I still can't... that is an issue I suppose I will solve on my own. I was unable to tell anyone about what I believed. No one would have believed it. No one would have had any idea at all what to think of me if I had told them I was this weird pterodacty-dragon thing... I mean... there was no word for it. No animal, to my knowledge, had ever existed like it... not on Earth anyway.
And so the years went on. I kept my secret to myself, and pretended to be normal. There would be no place for me, though who I was, what... I was inside... I knew that could never change.
Then 2009 came. Avatar came. And there it was. It wasn't me, of course. No computer-generated image of some work of fiction could really capture the species as it is, though it was close, very close. Many times I felt that, during the film, I was re-living countless dreams of flying. It was enough to just bring tears to my eyes. I went back 11 times to see it... it was a lot of money... but it was all worth it, to re-live it like that.
I chose the name Taw for simplicity. I feel it is interesting, and I feel that it fits me well. It may not be a Toruk name, necessarily, as the language of such a thing is merely comprised of animal noises and body posturing... but it is a word of kifkey Eywa'evengä.

Anyhow. I hope I have not intruded into places I should not have.
Peace be with you all.

-Taw